You Lookin' at Me?

So a strange thing happened yesterday. I went to Sam's Club with my mom to buy some gum. I am a little obsessed with Orbit White bubblegum and I chew it so frequently I find it's more economical to buy it in bulk. So I walk up to the checkout counter with my 240 piece container of gum and I notice that the cashier who was a cute 20 something male seemed to be giving me a few extra side glances. At first I thought he had some kind of issue with his eyes that I should pretend not to notice but then it dawned on me that he may be trying to check me out. After we paid for our items he looked directly at me with a smile and said "You ladies have a nice day!" I said thank you and went on my merry little way. It may have all been in my head but a part of me wants to believe that he might have actually found me attractive. Perhaps he was in fact checking me out and I should have flirted with him while he was ringing me up but since that has never happened to me I don't think that's something I naturally would have done.

I wonder what it's like for girls who have this sort of thing happen to them all the time. You know the one's I'm talking about. We all have at least one friend that always gets hit on when they are out in public. The 1st person that comes to mind for me is my friend Sarah. We met at work a few years ago and our friendship actually began because of our mutual love for fashion. She's a very beautiful woman with an insanely toned body due to her daily commitment to Crossfit. Guys hit on her all the time and I know she is used to it because she so easily banters back and forth with them. She has her pick of the litter so to speak so I imagine that it's fun for her but to me it's a foreign concept. Honestly the fact that I smiled back at the guy and said thank you was a big step for me. My self-esteem took a pretty big blow after the breakup so it's taken me awhile to even get up the nerve to meet new people in general. Two years ago I had no problem going out with my girlfriends and striking up a conversation with a cute stranger but now I find that I have to force myself to try and do that and it's rather frightening. I'm not sure how I can get back to a place where I'm comfortable with myself or maybe I'm now just realizing that I've never really been all that comfortable with being just me.

By the way, I was not wearing the outfit pictured above when I was out shopping at Sam's club. That is a Maggie London dress that I got on an awesome clearance at Von Maur a few weeks ago. It was originally $148 and I scored it for $35. Very exciting day for me that was. The shoes are a pair of 4 inch stacked colorblock heels that I got at Nine West last spring on a random 40% off sale that they happened to be having one weekend. One woman commented that she didn't know how I could walk in those heels. They are pretty comfortable because the heel is stacked but to be honest I do have to concentrate a little extra when walking in them because one wobbly step could mean a grave disaster. They are super cute though right?